A Guest Post by Jordan Jones
Jordan Jones is a 17-year-old from Mississippi and is a content creator. He focuses on mental health and wants to help others speak up about this much-too-often taboo topic. Jordan cares about people; he wants to help bring value to others. His happiness is helping others.
You can read more about his experiences on Medium.
The thought of the next day was like a cold breeze. The type of cold that made you hot on the inside. My brain forced thoughts out, but to only go through the hot path of my negative thoughts first. And then to the outskirts of my own two eyes. My mind, corrupt from the sadness that each day brings, yet having a small batch of freedom every full moon.
My Mask And Mind
The mask I wore to keep the black juice out. I drowned within myself, gasping for air each day. I missed parts of enjoyment during my childhood. Running out of each path from searching for myself to only get torn down even more. I was in my own head a lot, but at the same time I wasn’t.
My head felt as if it were empty, but it was filled with ill thoughts. For as long as I remember this was an everyday thing. My mouth sealed with fear, my throat dry from keeping shut.
The opinions of others dug deep into my skull. Eating away piece by piece, making me stumble like a drunk man. My mind became more and more corrupt and filled with pain. It felt like a ticking time bomb.
I fought to find myself in other souls, but those souls were lost. Ups and downs, my hands sore from the climb. I started falling, and before the trigger finger and the knife to make its way in, I looked deep within myself and it all made sense.
Depression And Anxiety Shouldn’t Be Taken Lightly
Depression is something that isn’t talked about enough in the world. The suicide rate is going up and all we can do is ”pay our respects” and have ”hope”.
Hoping it will get better won’t solve anything. That’s why I am putting my all into this. Kids should be brought up and taught how to handle things at a young age.
In my generation, depression is a normal thing. There are more unhappy people than happy people.
This topic should be at the forefront of everything. Everyone should be able to live a happy life.
Speak Up will encourage people to speak up about their problems because when things build up, life can get ugly. We aren’t trained to handle our emotions, so ending it all is something people go to first.
When we let things build and build, our minds get weaker and weaker. Our hearts become brittle; and because of this, we want the pain to stop. That’s why we choose suicide.
I want my campaign to touch as many people as it can. I want to help people out of the dark holes that anxiety and depression can bring, because I’ve been there.
Follow me as I put Speak Up on the map and bring awareness to this topic!