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Do You Need a Second Chance? You’ve Got One.

I believe in second chances.

People screw up, mistakes are made. Whether through divine intervention or the kindness of another human being…sometimes, we get that second chance. If mistakes are made, I believe each day — or even each moment — one can start anew…do better…be better.

My entire life was given a second chance in 1995.

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The Silliest Reason I Ever Cried

What’s your silly crying scenario?

My dreadful drive to work begins by 6:15am, yet the existence of the Kidd Kraddick Morning Show on Jack FM radio allows me to enjoy this commute on the Dallas North Tollway. Their family-friendly, hilarious morning show has been a happy place of mine for years. A couple weeks ago, host J-Si shared that his wife Kinsey cried over not being chosen as a chaperone for her son’s first field trip. Then, the cast opened it up to their audience members to share their silliest reasons for crying. I instantly knew what my moment was. It’s what made me realize I needed to seek help for emotional instability and the status of my mental health.  My silly crying scenario involved coupons.

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Mental Health Day = Medical Leave

When I Just Can’t Cope

I’m currently on a brief medical leave from my day job because I just can’t cope. I’m trying to avoid a complete breakdown. Having bipolar affects multiple aspects of life, and maintaining a job is one of them. I just can’t seem to complete all the necessary tasks…at work or at home. My energy and mental capacity dwindles throughout day. I’ve received emails at work telling me where I’m slipping; however, I’m slipping more than they realize. I awaken at 4:45am and leave by 6:10 to avoid monstrous traffic, and I’m home again before 5:00. Then, I have more work to do, of course, because a teacher’s job isn’t just during school hours. School hours are for teaching and meetings, yet by noon I begin to struggle. After typical work hours, it’s time for more parent contact, lesson plans, grading, and ancillary paperwork. And, lesson plans are not just a lesson plan a day… it’s four lesson plans per day due to the types of classes I teach; that’s twenty lesson plans per week. Continue reading “Mental Health Day = Medical Leave”

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A Positive Mid-Life Crisis

September 2016 to September 2017


It has been an emotional year for me. This is the first year after the passing of my younger brother, the other pea in my pod, my kindred spirit.

Between his passing and me being in my 40’s, it has also been the beginning of my mid-life crisis, so to speak. I want to live the life my brother was not able to live. Something I’ve wanted to do since 2nd grade when my teacher, Sr. Ann Francis, praised me for a poem I had written, was to be a writer.  The pursuit of writing had always been pushed down to the bottom of my to-do list. Other activities took precedent. Schooling, college, marriage, job, child, family. The career path I took was one of being an English teacher. Throughout the years, teaching has been a beat down. It’s not just teaching, its paperwork, politics, micro-managing, long hours, little free time. Yes, there are positives, as well, but since my first year of teaching, I knew I couldn’t do it forever. Well, this is my twentieth year. Hmmm…

Being an educator in a school system has not been beneficial to my health, especially since I already struggle with depression and anxiety. Teaching has compounded my struggle. The weight of mental illness has been enormous, and there are days where I cannot seem to carry it. There have been a couple years where I’ve had to take time off work for months due to mental breakdowns.

This past May, I decided it’s past time for me to pursue something for which I have such fervor. Continue reading “A Positive Mid-Life Crisis”